30 Days Challenge to write the blog was a complete bust. Couldn't write something if I didn't accomplished anything these days. Dunno what's wrong with me and just admit need serious help. Just feeling too emotional these days and can't seem to calm myself down. Gonna try again ...
The Victoria Holiday Weekend was the best of the times and the worst of the times...mostly worst.
Friday night started off wonderfully with a dinner, and fun event @ ESC-IT (puzzle room) follow by The Amazing Spider-Man 3 movie. During the dinner, I chatted with the nice server "Galeena" and asked her what do I need to do convince my good friend to date me. She was honest and told me just ask her straight out and no games or anything like that.
So before the movie when I followed her advice and tried to convince my good friend to go out on a date with me. She said no and respected that...but sort of became awkward during the movie...largely because I felt sad and alone as there were several scenes of romance. I believe I made it worse for myself and allow myself get too emotional.
Over the next several days, I decided to get bold and ask several girls out on a date...but believe it or not nary an interest. Most of them basically just said "You're a nice guy, but..." I am confused...what's exactly is wrong with nice guys these days ? Women are so complicated and confusing to me.
Last night met an amazing girl and our conversations were like smooth flowing...and never felt like that for a while...feels so good to have a good long conversation like that...we were debating and enjoying each company...it felt so natural...it all came to a thud once her boyfriend came by...felt so embarrassed for letting my hopes up...went home with a sad face. Again single.
At this rate, I am just looking for a first date let alone a relationship. Maybe it's just never meant to for me to have a relationship at all. Maybe I am doomed to be single for the remaining of my life.
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