January 5
"If you want a kinder world, then behave with kindness; if you want a peaceful world, make peace within." - Dan Millman
"If you want a kinder world, then behave with kindness; if you want a peaceful world, make peace within." - Dan Millman
Feeling
remorse at lack of accomplishing anything in Year 2012. No girlfriend, no sex, job situation is not getting better. Vow to try better.
January 13
“One of the most difficult things everyone has to learn is that for your entire life you must keep fighting and adjusting if you hope to survive. No matter who you are or what your position is you must keep fighting for whatever it is you desire to achieve.” - George Allen
“One of the most difficult things everyone has to learn is that for your entire life you must keep fighting and adjusting if you hope to survive. No matter who you are or what your position is you must keep fighting for whatever it is you desire to achieve.” - George Allen
March 16
Attended my first Leaf game vs. Florida Panthers @ ACC. Naturally I went alone as I couldn’t find anyone to go with me nor can afford it. It was single platinum seat, second row from the rink, costing about $150. I figured that it would be the year that I would begin with a bang so might as well spend it. There was a different entrance to enter, free coat check for Canada Goose, free glass of wine. Also there was a Platinum restaurant where the food was pre-ordered before the game started. This way, the season ticket holders can eat before the game starts. It’s weird but true. It would explain why most of the time you would see the Platinum seats empty on TV. Leafs won 3-2.
April 22
The word has gotten around that I was on TV commercial as Leaf makes the march to the playoffs. It was a few seconds of fame from March 16th. Couldn’t get over myself about that and showed pride and honor for the Leafs and for myself. Check me out at 37 seconds going nuts cheering for the Leafs;
http://www.sportsnet.ca/hockey/nhl/gunnarsson-hopefully-playoffs-will-be-crazy/
The word has gotten around that I was on TV commercial as Leaf makes the march to the playoffs. It was a few seconds of fame from March 16th. Couldn’t get over myself about that and showed pride and honor for the Leafs and for myself. Check me out at 37 seconds going nuts cheering for the Leafs;
http://www.sportsnet.ca/hockey/nhl/gunnarsson-hopefully-playoffs-will-be-crazy/
April 30
"Always the trustworthy friend, but never your boyfriend."
"Always the trustworthy friend, but never your boyfriend."
May 28
At war at workplace…the office politics is getting so ridiculous. My team was suppose to get the new supervisor but instead was postponed to November due to budget cuts ??? It was then I first seriously entertain the thought of quitting this job which is causing me so much stress and pressure to myself.
At war at workplace…the office politics is getting so ridiculous. My team was suppose to get the new supervisor but instead was postponed to November due to budget cuts ??? It was then I first seriously entertain the thought of quitting this job which is causing me so much stress and pressure to myself.
June 6
Oh boy, my first smartphone Blackberry Bold has explicitly died on me just liked that. The feeling of not be able to use the phone to text left me feeling naked. But eventually I realized that only 2 or 3 people truly care about me. No one texts me like those other people generally do even when I try to initial the conversation. So in short, didn't feel I miss it so much as I thought I would.
Oh boy, my first smartphone Blackberry Bold has explicitly died on me just liked that. The feeling of not be able to use the phone to text left me feeling naked. But eventually I realized that only 2 or 3 people truly care about me. No one texts me like those other people generally do even when I try to initial the conversation. So in short, didn't feel I miss it so much as I thought I would.
Five days later upgraded to
Samsung Galaxy SIII for free plus $50 rebate.
So it was a win-win situation for me.
But a huge steep learning curve to use this intelligent phone.
August 27
Am at the cross-roads...
One to take a lighten path to health but no
money...
Two to continue the same path but with stress
and pressure and naturally comes with money...
Which path do I take ?
Things are getting real as the
relationship between myself and boss continues to fall apart. Was so unsure of what to do.
September 20
Another blowout at work…finally could not take anymore...RESIGNED…naturally when the word got out, my colleagues was shocked as they thought I would be a lifer at FTI. Some tears, some sadness, some surprised, so ugly rumors about me quitting, some wishful that they can do the same as I did.
Another blowout at work…finally could not take anymore...RESIGNED…naturally when the word got out, my colleagues was shocked as they thought I would be a lifer at FTI. Some tears, some sadness, some surprised, so ugly rumors about me quitting, some wishful that they can do the same as I did.
October 4
Final Day at Franklin Templeton Investments after 18 years.
Final Day at Franklin Templeton Investments after 18 years.
Finally Free !
Shoulders less heavy
Sleep so easy
At Peace
***
Just Happy
New Chapter Begins
Bright the Future it is
Just Happy
Start of New Chapter
of My Life !
October 17
Tried to use this
line on a girl at the bookstore and all I got was a ugly sneer. I thought it was good and just came from my
mind. Unless I try ... Oh well, my single life continues.
Your body is what makes you sexy...
Your smile is what makes you pretty...
But it's your personality is what makes it beautiful.
November 4
Nothing really accomplished after one month of unemployment…so much for the plans I made. Just feeling relaxed and not wanting to do anything. Caught up on the reading list and forgotten how much fun it was reading again.
Nothing really accomplished after one month of unemployment…so much for the plans I made. Just feeling relaxed and not wanting to do anything. Caught up on the reading list and forgotten how much fun it was reading again.
It got me thinking if there is a purpose in life or is it all one big fat lie ? Do we have to contribute to the society ? Would anyone miss me if I am gone ?
14 Reasons Why
Poker Is Better Than Sex
- Sex is good but poker last longer.
- You can still get lucky without shaving or showering.
- Once you finished a session. You can start a new one right away.
- You can play any opponent. Even if they are 25 years younger or 25 years older.
- Sometimes poker pays you. And it always welcomes you back for more.
- Playing with a lot of partners are allowed. In fact, threesomes and foursomes are allowed.
- You never have to apologize for a bad hand. Just get back in the action and play some more.
- You can eat, smoke, watch television, or listen to music or get a massage while you play.
- You’ll never hear an opponent complain, “Not now, I have an headache.”
- Your game can last long as you want. Satisfaction.
- Your opponents won’t care how inexperienced you are. In fact, will probably welcome this.
- There is no need for winning, dining, or foreplay. You can jump right into the fun stuff.
- You can watch how others play, and no one will get mad.
- You can switch partners with no need to explain yourself.
And 7 Reasons On How They Are Similar
- Playing alone is not fun.
- You must sure to take adequate protection.
- Having a good hand is not enough; you have to know how to use it.
- Everyone claims to have a big pair or big balls or big tits.
- There are frequently risks involved, so it’s best to be cautious.
- You need to know when to bluff just like ladies fake orgasms.
- The size of your stack is important.
Maybe it’s why I play poker so
much as it is so additive and fun. And
not worry about too much about my single life or lack thereof sex.
November 28
Happy 42nd Birthday
Happy 42nd Birthday
It’s been a long time that
someone actually did the planning for my birthday. In fact, I can’t recall the last time that
someone did it for me. But I am so happy
that my Sistar got me the cake and gotten everyone singing Happy Birthday to me
at Red Hot Poker. It’s been so long that
I felt good and happy.
Considering my family
relations, it’s still so rocky and confusing at times. My birthdays are usually quiet affair at home
alone, not having any close friends.
December 26
I could fall in love with you if you let me.
If you let me in on a secret and told me you
liked Disney movies still, even as an adult.
If you trusted me with the parts of you that
seem so inconsequential and light, the details that are not loaded and heavy
and rife with conflict.
But trust me with those ones, too, the heavy
things that haunt you.
Let me earn them, let me prove that I could
keep things between us.
I promise to keep your secrets to myself, those
little tokens of how you’re letting me in.
I could love you if you trusted me, if you let
me prove that I am trustworthy.
Dammit, I just want a
girlfriend. Is it too much to ask for ?
December 31 - Last Day Of Year
2013
Wasn’t so memorable at all.
Too many negative events and not
much positive to say.
Still single for the past 18
years. Last girlfriend I had was in
university.
Haven’t had sex in the last 6
years and counting.
Continue to battle depression for
the last 5 years and counting.
Not being invited to any of the
parties, weddings, baby births, or just simply friends’ gathering.
It’s so sad of how my years are
being wasted. And at the same time,
there are so many things I want to do but feel too timid to do it on my
own. Time is running out, life is
getting shorter, clock is ticking away.
Got the flu and slight fever and could not make to my buddy’s traditional New Year celebration.
So sad … time to go to sleep ... wish 2013 away
